Sisterhood

What my sisterhood means to me. It’s a weird concept, sororities. A large group of like minded unique women. What’s so cool about this group is the potential that it brings out in women. Funny I say that. As an Alpha Xi Delta our open motto is “Realize Your Potential”. This is so great an inspirational. When I first joined I was looking for friends. The typical “you pay for your friends” joke applies here. Little did I know I was about to join the most life changing group of women. My freshman year I was given a chance to sit on our exec council. I was a lonely, confused freshman. The older sisters took me under their wings and transformed me into a confident and noble leader. After I had become comfortable in my chapter I got into a relationship that pulled me back from my potential and I laid low for about a year. During this time I skipped events and made excuses not to hang out with these women. When my heart got broken who was there? My sisters. Each and everyone one of them lifted me up out of the darkest place in my life. I am now proud to say that I am truly happy and supported by these women. Without them I am to sure I would be here today. When someone disses Greek life I can’t help but shake my head and think, “you are missing out”. There is something crazy and special but my sisters. I have realized my potential and I continue to grow in the values of Alpha Xi Delta. TFJ ladies.

I'm Ready God

I feel very stuck in my life. I'm that person that always seems to have the bad luck. You know that one person that pours their soul into everything and comes out being shit on? Yeah, I'm that girl. And honestly I am ready for god to take this weird burden off of me. I am ready to be happy. I am ready to find love that is genuine and kind. I want to feel supported and  loved by the people around me. I don't want god to keep testing me. I know he has good intentions but isn't it enough? I pray that one day I will wake up and things will go my way. It's selfish to say but I can't help but ask, why me? Why do I put my all into a class and fail. Why do I put my all into love and get cheated. Why do I work so hard for nothing. What I do know is one day this will have to turn around. One day I will be on top of the world. One day love will find me. One day I will be truly happy with myself. Until then I pray.

He Loved Me like He Loves You...Run

You are nothing special to him, just like me. He pulled the same moves. I remember feeling so loved and wanted. He told me he loved me and needed me. He posted about me and showed me off like I was perfect. I remember living in this dream world for a good year or so. It was an amazing time. I'm sure you are so in love and in awe with him. I'm sure he treats you like you are gold. Please do do not be fooled my dear. He does this to all of us. He plays these games for himself. He can not be alone. He feels as if he has to control someone. One day you will lose yourself in his love. It will consume you. You will soak up every word and beg for his attention. You will put him before your own sanity. You would take a bullet for him, wouldn't you? Yes, I know the feeling. Once you have to beg for his attention just know that is the end. He has stopped loving you just like he did me. You will find him making excuses and being sneaking, almost distant. Am I good enough? No, you are too good for him. Just know you need to run then. It only gets worse, it only gets harder to leave. If you don't leave he will leave you but with broken soul. So do yourself a favor and leave now. He loved me like he loves you now... and it will never work out.