I'm Ready God

I feel very stuck in my life. I'm that person that always seems to have the bad luck. You know that one person that pours their soul into everything and comes out being shit on? Yeah, I'm that girl. And honestly I am ready for god to take this weird burden off of me. I am ready to be happy. I am ready to find love that is genuine and kind. I want to feel supported and  loved by the people around me. I don't want god to keep testing me. I know he has good intentions but isn't it enough? I pray that one day I will wake up and things will go my way. It's selfish to say but I can't help but ask, why me? Why do I put my all into a class and fail. Why do I put my all into love and get cheated. Why do I work so hard for nothing. What I do know is one day this will have to turn around. One day I will be on top of the world. One day love will find me. One day I will be truly happy with myself. Until then I pray.